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Blue Hours

by Bryant Eugene Vazquez

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    Professionally duplicated cassette, clear blue shell, "Blue Hours" written on A-side in blue Sharpee. Blue on blue on blue. Limited to 100 hand-numbered copies. Comes with vinyl sticker and 8-page PDF (w/download) featuring lyrics, photographs, and the story behind "Blue Hours" written by B.E.V.

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1.
Etc... 00:52
Wasting time Drowning yourself for a while Took the pills Gonna spill for a while Through the stale Going pale for a while Tell the tale Oh, is it original?
2.
I’m all fucked up I’ve been too drunk It’s been months since I’ve not felt well And now I’m here and I’ve yet to sail I’m all undone I’m all undone I haven’t slept Or at least I think The hours pass and I still slip The city, too, sleeps at night The silence both dark and bright So, wish me well Or bid farewell Took a train about three days long All behind me But I can’t tell If my plans are real foolproof I simply just packed and moved The skyline is plain in sight The weather is still and fine My heart has filled up to the brim My actions are brash and swift Reactions are all well hid The sirens call out with fright Will I stand the test of time? The sunsets I took in strides, People, the years I’ve tried
3.
The smoke rings rise and trail From a skinny cigarette The stench within these walls Is that of failure and of whiskey Cold steps and clouded mind Dead grime ‘neath my fingertips But all is fine- is well As I can tell It’s all the same Disciples in disarray The muse is drowning Caught in a storm Capsized and left for dead Surrounded by everything Astounding severed head
4.
She’s sleeping with a ghost Have you seen him? Has he forced you to play host? Spit blood up into a cup You’re the artist you threw up He’s sleeping with a rag He’s torn, so sick and mad Tonight won’t stand to drink Though empty bottles won’t just sink
5.
Black dog days Far from the sun Leave me stray Take me out back Put me down Black dog days Overcast, feels close to death Head in rain Heart, it won’t heal the pain Black dog days Bite yourself in fits of rage Sleep for days Just to hide out from the phase You’re a slave to these black dog ways Serve your master Watch the days get killed away
6.
I am not clean I am unkempt And not by choice I don’t pretend It boils my blood within I seen what’s happening Can’t fight against the winds You ain’t got oxygen You ain’t got much of hope You’re broke It’s what you know Can’t grow without the rains You dry up Cracked lips Hold on to a fucking dollar It’s there’s such a name Call it squalor What would you know of pain? You’re washed up and everything Here comes some hollow words Communion never worked Just wear your collared shirts And crucify the dirt in all in everything My favorite sport was sin Not just in yester-tense Still live for the sting
7.
So here we stand Before the blue Our ground in black in white Our actions mute But do you not want the same? Ever heart in every grave Just as I has called your name Smudged our faces with the sands Even blue cannot be bright When the black affects the light So, here we stand Before the hue Of distance hearts New colors ran When the grey affects the waves And we stand upon the changes hand in hand
8.
I am the suffering man I stand before deliverance Banned by his own hand Beneath the dirt, the rocks, and leaves Shivering knees Each breath diseased Expelled from lungs crippled and weak The light that’s dim denied to me I am the trembling hand Too frail to hold Or clasp in prayer Shriveled and bare My tongue unfolds Exposed it swells Corrupting the air with words fatal and pure Believe the false Create:deceive Crooked as hell Perceive in lies Drink from the well
9.
Yes, I am sad And no, not now What is wrong with that? Can’t I feel bad? Can’t I not feel low? People say it is so Show me the lens you bring Break from the beast’s stare Wear it out some Tear the cloth, hun Fuck yourself up good Know the differences
10.
When shall you come? I’ve waited for hours here Twiddling my thumbs When will you make yourself known? Shall I stay sat devouring thoughts of importance Or spew out all words? Dripping in wretched secrets. Shall you ring dry my tongue? Splatter your dress You float there collected Speak so soft Whisper the hymns of your God And who is this man? Sheds blood for others upon his command With reasons beyond your morals For who knows? Who cares.
11.
Startled by the fact that my memory goes blank with ease Just a rider in the dark losing track of why he talks or breathes And the people who you’ve met walk around with faces blurred by grief Every enemy you’ve made is just a trait within yourself you’ve seen Lest, you should become the same Stay inside maybe you’ll find something worth a bleed Hover around here in the corners you’ve come to exist When the pain still stabs how quickly we become a slave But you notice as you’re bleeding out There’s nothing in your arteries
12.
The Thirst 01:22
There ain’t nothing the bottles can’t fix Except the lack of them Then, the pain starts to set in Soon to follow A phase you can’t avoid Should the thirst persist to want you Can it be destroyed?
13.
In Your Arms 02:50
I’d be unlike no other man Collecting stares and blending in with wolves At first you’d think me clever By night fall you would know yourself the fool I hide behind each lover with thin spread wings They offer me their wools My rigid skin will cover her My quenchless mouth will foam before it drools In her arms I’ve struggled to say sorry In her arms the satin mask I bear In her arms I drowned of simple pleasures At her side I lied to keep her there A timelessness provokes decay Romanticized with fervor to the grave Exalting in your blessed hips You take me in each hour we’re away This tearing will confront me now It lacerates my flesh and scrapes your grace Your laughter is a fallen tree I cut it down and fed it to the flames
14.
On the Way 02:19
Sighing alone Dying alone Crying alone Flying, afraid so But, I’m on my way down
15.
Ropes 02:13
The silence makes you a ghost, yeah In hours so empty the house will play host The burning brings you the ghosts, yeah The questions continue you're asking yourself With a rope In footsteps not sure that you took, yeah A darkness distinguished in bottle & pills & bliss A solitude ending Not quite how you planned it, yeah
16.
Norma 02:08
If you’re true Well, I can’t tell You could lie I love you still I do believe Dance with me in an orchard, please Pick me up And swing me around the orange trees Wear the shirt I bought for you You left behind in a pile of clothes To start a new You broke your word It’s hurt me so If you can’t love me Let me know before we’re old
17.
Just start walking Until it feels right to stop The wind blows cold And your cigarette burns bright People of every shape and form They gather around fields of green Where stories were born No pressure and not anyone around The treasures you come across and found They all are yours The moments you’ll think about some day You’re not lost Just going through some phase When you’re walking through the city Many times you may feel small Still you wander in amazement at the beauty of it all And the sun comes down upon you As a chill creeps deep within Just continue on down Keep walking Until you know where to begin

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From the accompanying PDF:

"...Winter was brutal, now, looking back two years later. Now, having retrieved the same laptop I’d left behind in a rush, I am reacquainted with songs I’d all but forgotten. Short, sweet, simple, and plentiful.

Blue Hours happen when you stay awake and wait for the sun to show itself, whether due to lack of rest, plethora of restlessness, or temperament. They are what they are, and only those who’ve known them can really understand what they are. These songs, they were forced; these songs, they wrote themselves; these songs are strangers and friends; theses songs are the corner of a flooded room, waiting to be lived in." - B.E.V., December, 2015

credits

released December 18, 2015

Blue Hours was written and recorded by Bryant Eugene Vazquez during his relocation to Philadelphia and the months immediately following, between October and December of 2013.


All tracks mastered by Jon Du. Original artwork and photography by Bryant Eugene Vazquez. Layout by Aaris K.

AAĀ004 // 2015 // Thank you.

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